ONE YELLOW DOOR

In ‘One Yellow Door’ Rebecca de Saintonge explores how caring for a loved one, long-term, can challenge your faith and threaten your personal survival.

This website is a place for us to share experiences of illness and caring, and to explore faith in the light of doubt and suffering.

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The body: questions of survival

Only those who have looked after a loved one with dementia know the complexity of emotions you struggle with: the daily grief, the painful pretence of normality, the fatigue. You struggle to survive as your own life is gradually overwhelmed. And who looks after you? How do you stay alive?

We hope this website will provide a safe place to share the challenges of caring and surviving.

Latest posts

  • Finding meaning within suffering

    Viktor Frankl, the Austrian neurologist and psychiatrist, was a holocaust survivor.

  • Forget what you've been taught about God. Let silence speak.

    For many, the concept of ‘God’ may still be uncomfortable, or unclear, but the practice of silent prayer, letting go of your own thoughts and allowing the spirit of God to dwell in you, can be the beginning of healing and a new spiritual reality, as Rich Lewis has found out.

  • Living creatively in a diminishing space

    As your partner becomes less able, their world shrinks around them, and so does your own, so how do you survive and find a way to live creatively within this diminishing space? Rebecca de Saintonge found a way.

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The soul: questions of faith

As my husband’s illness progressed, my faith faltered in the light of his suffering. So many things I’d been told to believe no longer made sense. I had to rethink my beliefs and try to find a new spirituality.

Many who read 'One Yellow Door' said they felt the same.

Here is a place to share your thoughts and ideas about rethinking faith.

Latest posts

  • Bad Dad, Good Dad

    How an unexpected sense of Christ’s presence gave Tony Hemmings the permission to express his anger and experience a Father’s love.

  • Forget what you've been taught about God. Let silence speak.

    For many, the concept of ‘God’ may still be uncomfortable, or unclear, but the practice of silent prayer, letting go of your own thoughts and allowing the spirit of God to dwell in you, can be the beginning of healing and a new spiritual reality, as Rich Lewis has found out.

  • It's OK to be fluid - faith changes

    Some days an angry atheist, at others a gentle believer, what matters, says David Hayward, is not that our feelings change, but that we have the freedom to keep exploring.

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